“I am a human being, not a human doing. Don’t equate your self-worth with how well you do things in life. You aren’t what you do. If you are what you do, then when you don’t…you aren’t.” – Wayne Dyer
On Wednesday, I woke up at 5 a.m. to go to a fitness class. Then I went to work until 5 p.m., taught a fitness class, had back to back health coaching sessions, and then I met up with an acquaintance who was in town for work. Finally, at 10 p.m. I arrived home.
I hadn’t eaten dinner, hadn’t had a moment to check in with myself all day. I went to bed feeling exhausted.
Thursday morning I woke up feeling sick. Headache, nausea, body aches, chills. I felt awful all day, and I’m still feeling sick today.
The crazy thing is that this happened last week too. I had a non-stop day from 5 a.m. to 10 p.m., missed meals, never rested and the next day I felt sick.
Obviously my body is telling me something.
People ask me how I do it all. I always say, “I’m not really sure.” Mostly because I don’t feel like I’m “doing it all” well. I get exhausted and overwhelmed.
One of the things that I talk to my health coaching clients about frequently is self-care. I know how important it is to be mindful of what you need physically, emotionally and spiritually.
While I practice self-care most days, I still get so focused on my to do list that I lose sight of what I really need. I focus on the doing…meeting with clients, teaching fitness classes, work, blogging, teaching my college course, teaching community workshops, working out, keeping the house clean.
This week was a wake up call for me. I’m doing too much. I’m doing so much I’m getting physically sick.
I took today off work. I woke up late, did a few sun salutations, did a 30-minute meditation, ate breakfast, drank greens. I resisted my urge to look at my to do list. I’m practicing being today.